August 12, 2011

The "Why"

If you live in a city like Denver or Boulder, there is a LOT going on in the yoga community. Every weekend there is a workshop or eight, there are the studio classes, and there are special guests, these amazing yoga and philosophy teachers who come from a far to spend time teaching and sharing their wisdom. Sometimes you feel like you should be at every one of these events. It seems like everyone else is able to make them all, so you can too. Sure you may have a full-time job, children, a part-time job, pets, animals, reading to do for trainings, and homework, but you can fit in three more events, right?

I remember early on in my teacher training, I felt a bit of the panic set in. Maybe I couldn't attend all the events, was I less of a yogini? Did that make me less qualified to teach? I brought up my fears and frustrations with my yoga mentor and Iyengar style teacher and she asked me, "why do you want to teach?". It took me a minute to respond, and then I said something that sounded very much like this, 
Because yoga has changed my life. It's allowed me to live with depression in a way that feels sustainable and it has made the other aspects of my life easier, for lack of a better word. This is a gift and I want to share it. I want to make yoga accessible.
She asked me to write it down. I did. We also talked it through a bit more and the gist was, attend the events and classes that were going to best serve me and my students at this time. While a wealth of knowledge is available it doesn't mean you have to devour it all at once. A teacher who has time to marinate and bring these new elements and skills is a lot better off than a teacher who is too exhausted and over exerted to absorb anything new.

I go back to that piece of paper every time I begin to waver. Recently I took on too much. Not that my goals were too big just too much for one person in a short amount of time. I refined my schedule, re-assessed my offerings as far a teacher and also within my consulting business. A huge weight has been lifted from me. I am happier, I am sleeping better, I have more energy. I sound like a perky commercial.

I recognize it's scary taking on new endeavors, both for myself and for my students. In order to honor them I have to honor myself. If you're evolving something in your life, beginning a new training program or project, or just want to do better for yourself I really encourage to put it down on paper. Write down the "Why". You're "Why" may change and develop and come back to its orginal iteration over time. However, in the darker times of doubt, worry, fear, the "Why" brings a bit of light to your path. After all, we can all use a little light to guide our way.

10 comments:

nora said...

Every time I read your work, I am reminded WHY I am involved in the yoga community at all!

Michelle Lee said...

Absolutely. THANKYOU so much for reminding me of this! I was just in the conundrum of, "Can I afford to squeeze in a Desi workshop? The obvious answer being no, and No I don't have time... But EVERYONE else is going, and How will I keep my competitive edge if I don't?" After reading your words I remember. Oh yah. I am not in Yoga to be competitive. Easy to get lost when yoga has become my sole profession.... However I forget that actually, it is my SOUL profession....and THAT is what matters.... xoxox ~M

Tali said...

Thank you both! You are both so very loved!

Deb said...

Hi Cupcake! I'm new to your site -- I found you through Living in the (k)Now -- so I just swooped in for a visit. But I LOVE THIS POST!! I'm glad to have found you and I'll be back!

Tali said...

Hi Deb! Thank you so much for the great comment and for coming by to read my post. So nice to have you here!

dodgycupcake said...

Thank you for this simple, yet effective strategy, and for sharing your story :)

Tali said...

Thank you DodgyCupcake!

yoginibunny said...

I really love this article. Being in the LA area, I feel exactly how you felt- workshops, special events, regular classes with teacher's teachers, kirtans... the list goes on... major overwhelm! Asking myself why I practice and why I share my practice is really centering. I love yoga because it's NOT competitive & so much yoga is within. Thank you for the helpful and grounding reminder.

Tali said...

Thank you!

Priscilla Warner said...

I think that any sustainable practice must come from an authentic, open, brave place. Thank you for sharing that place with us. I'm so glad that I found you on twitter this morning.